Sunday, 11 September 2016

ये अँधेरा कुछ केहता है

ना जाने क्यों मुझे ऐसा लगता है
शायद ये अँधेरा कुछ मुझसे केहता है

रास्ता कहीं भटक न जाऊं
इसलिए काले आइने मैं दो पल मेरे लिए रखता है

युही हम रात को कोसते है
सूरज की मोह मैं चांदनी का मजा खो देते है

कदम तो अभी बाहर निकले है
कारवाँ तो सेकड़ो और भी है

तू मुसाफिर है, तुझे सिर्फ चलना है
समय की इस परीक्षा मैं तुझे भी खड़ा उतरना है

तेरे हौसलो मैं अगर जान है
तो रास्ता तुझे ज़रूर मिलेगा

निशाने पर अगर तेरे आसमान है
तो सितारों मैं तो जरूर गिरेगा

भले ही हो आज अँधेरा बहुत, पर सूरज जरूर निकलेगा
ये मौसम भी बदलेगा और वक़्त फिर झूम उठेगा



-SR.

Thursday, 8 September 2016

Ray of hope

In search of a paradise
A heavenly abode

No matter where is that place
A palace, cottage or a rented space

I came down the lane
Leaving everything, I knew, behind

With a desire in my heart
A dream in my eyes

Path is clouded
Engulfed in darkness

Fear gripped me
My bones trembled
Found myself in despair

Emerged a light
Splintering the dark
A ray of hope, to walk on

-SR.

Tuesday, 30 August 2016

वक़्त

हाथ आनेवाली ख़ुशी पल मैं छीन लेता है 
वक़्त भी कैसे खेल खेलता है

जो नहीं मांगता उससे भर भर के देता है
पर जिसकी दुआ है उससे अंधेरे मैं छोड़ देता है

माना ये गम सभी के ज़िन्दगी का हिस्सा है
ना सिर्फ मेरा या तेरा पर सबका यही किस्सा है

पर कितना भी उससे समजाऊ
ना जाने क्यों ये दिल रोता है

हर पल एक नया मौसम है
ज़िन्दगी हर पल एक नयी पहेली है

वक़्त ने भले ही लिखे होंगे कहीं और इम्तिहान
आज नहीं तो कल, होगा अपनी मुट्ठी मैं ये जहान

साँसें चल रही है तो संघर्ष अभी बाकी है
लड़ाई भले तू हरा है पर युद्ध अभी बाकी है

घना अंधेरा, इतना सन्नाटा ही क्यों ने हो आज
पर नज़र मैं अगर तेरे ख्वाब अब भी ज़िंदा है
तो कल तेरी ही ज़मीन होगी और तेरा आसमान होगा  



-SR.

World beyond the stars

What we think as correct
Is inappropriate in their eyes

Our perspective towards life
Is nothing more than a trash can

Our talks were silenced then
By using the cloak of we being kids

So why question the reap now
When we can't have a conversation, deep

Words have a killer blow
Mightier than any sword
You will never understand
For you only give what you inherited

Things are changing at lightning speed
Neither you are open to it,
Nor do you try to understand it

Intentions are clear
Realisation is also there
But in a different way

Your approach is in one way
You forget to explore beyond the horizons

For there is a world beyond the stars
And hope is alive, even in the dark

Never learnt to appreciate, but
You know the trick to demoralise

Difficult it becomes to stand again
When going is made tough by the close ones

We suffer more in imagination, out of fear
Then what it is in reality

Hoping for a miracle, a ray of hope
Something to hold on to scale the mighty slopes

-SR.

Sunday, 21 August 2016

Special One

For quite some days I am feeling a void
Want to share tons, but can't find an ear to hear my plight

Heart is bleeding from within
Don't know the reason why

Eyes getting filled up with water
Each time I speak or even give a try

Can't look in anyone's eye
For the dam might break open wide

So running away into hiding
To allow a few drops, pass in the cry

Missing that special one today
Who would have been there for me

Who would have understood my silence
And read the pain in my eyes

Friends are there for me
No complaints on that part

But they also have restrictions
Can't be there besides me all the time

All I want is to speak out loud
Into someone's ears pour my heart out

Feels heavy from the inside
Don't know what tomorrow might have

Living on a thin hope
One day I may be able to hold my head high

-SR

Sunday, 14 August 2016

Sleeping Beauty

Long journey it has been,
Almost a decade old

Was yesterday as it seems
Came across this sleeping beauty

Silent person from the outside
Violent comedian from the inside

Keeps fighting with me always
Who says we are friends
Forever enemies at each others gate

From forgetting her birthday
To those birthday get togethers

From non stop masti and pranks
To serious life talks on the platter

Saw the ups and down, while sailing in same boat
Now we laugh upon those tragedies, Cherish the memories

Learning curve it has been
For you learnt things from me
Not the other way...(LOL)

Still more fun to explore, 
Still more memories to create

It's been a pleasure uptill now
Hope to see many decades 
Together, like enemy-friends


-SR

Sunday, 24 July 2016

Battle Stations

Didn't I try this time
Far far way to better than last time

Still why the same feeling
Why am I sensing the same outcome

Was true to myself this time
Didn't hide in the cloak of diplomacy

But as I am through halfway in the battle
Why does the result of war appears against me

They say tuff times are temporary always
Why is it then a different law for me

When many defined me good for nothing
I always went out to prove them wrong

Why is it that their understanding about me coming true
And my about me being proved wrong again

Life is too big to be upset with such petty setbacks
I know.
But sometimes they do take a toll

All I ask is some breathing space
Let my results do the talking
Rather me explaining everytime

Need some light, a pat on the back
That victory smile on my face again

Don't know what fate has plans for me
But I can't just give in
Coz I still have two battles to fight


-SR.

आयुष्य विद्येच्या माहेरात - II

Vasooli
Like I mentioned in the previous post, here I will be mentioning some memorable and adventurous incidents which took place during my stay in Pune. The first one was not so good but still something to remember was recovering my Rs. 2000/- given to the previous room mates where I stayed for one night. It was almost the very next day I called up that guy to return my money as I was not going to stay in that room anymore. And to that he replied, he wont be able to give the same as he used that money for some of his personal purpose. Officially, it was his money the moment I gave him. So he can use it as per his convenience. But I was not in a position to accept that practical thinking as I was desperately in need of money. So I asked him to give me a tentative date when he will be able to return the amount. I had prepared a rough budget while coming to Pune. And I had considered the maximum possible expenses plus few amount as buffer. Hence I was not going to fall in any pit if this recovery is delayed. But I didn't wanted to withdraw money from bank. Plus, I couldn't trust a stranger with my money. In case I don't follow up regularly I might end up losing my amount. So I use to regularly ping him to remind about my dues.

Now this is one the biggest trait in me. When you know one cannot change a situation at the moment, we have no option than accepting the same as it is. But that's what I fail to do most of the times. And this spoils my daily routine. As that thought occupies my mind all the time and I become restless by each passing day until the status quo changes Ofcourse this attitude was at it's peak when Pune was Live i.e. in 2010. Lot of things have changed in the past 5 years. And today I feel I have learned some skills of accepting the situation rather than cribbing on it.

When my calls and messages were going in vain, I finally involved my friend Mane into all this. We both once went to his house so that Mane could see my debtor. That day he paid me Rs. 500/- and further asked time for paying the balance amount. I took that amount as a token of trust and gave some more grace days. But my mind was not able to give those grace days. After a few days I lost patience. So finally me and Mane decided to talk to our roommate Nagesh. On a normal day we leave for library before 6am. But that day we both stayed back to chat with Nagesh. I told him the entire situation. Final 2days of his extended grace were pending. Nagesh assured me that if now he defaults I will intervene and talk to him directly. That much of assurance was enough for me. Those final 2 days my mind wasn't occupied by that thought since I knew that now I wasn't alone in the battle ground.

On the final day when I called him, he said he ready to pay the balance amount but for that I had to come to a certain location. At that moment I only wanted my money back so I asked Mane if he could accompany me to that place. He readily agreed for the same. I told Nagesh all this. Prakash was also there listening. He said that, the place you are talking is quite far from here. I have a friend there who stays at the exact location where you have to go. So if you don't mind I can tell him to collect the money on behalf. I readily agreed as at the end the money was going to come in our house. So officially the Vassooli chapter should have ended when the cash was transfered from my original debtor. But I didn't receive the cash immediately. The amount was with Prakash but maybe he forgot or I don't know but I still wasn't in receipt of the cash. Follow up with the stranger wasn't a big deal as there weren't any strings attached. But here it was different case. Already they had did a big favour on me by allowing me to stay with them. So it was a bit complicated. But after a few days of biding my time, I finally gathered some courage and asked Prakash to give the money as I had to pay the Mess Allowance. It was then that I finally received the cash and the chapter came to an end.


Dance Session
My regular day use to kick off at 6am and will go until 9pm. Our dinner use to arrive at 845pm in the library. So we use to have our food and then leave for the day. By the time we use to reach home other room mates would also be home from office. So now it was time for talks, discussions and fun. One such day we all were sitting and enjoying some videos on a friends laptop. Please don't overthink, they were related to Raj Thackeray and not other stuff. Common factor among all of us was the MNS. Everyone followed this one political party and hence this topic always dominated our discussions. But that day suddenly we started playing songs and dancing to it's tunes. After one took the initiative other too joined in and it was one helluva event. Unplanned but awesome. This happened in the very initial days. I was not completely involved in them. So I preferred to do the video shooting. Even today when I see those clips, how carefree were those days. I had many reasons to stay alone, secluded and keep cribbing on my personal problems. But instead I chose to enjoy the moment and find solace in this dancing session.

Finally...A Bed
I had assumed that I will be getting a bed in the hostel. But since I was the extra member there wasn't any bed allocated to me. The owner used give me a new reason everyday, but I had guessed it on first day that I won't be getting a bed. I remember the first two weeks, I used to sleep on the floor with one bed sheet below. Since I didn't carry any pillow so I used to use my bag as my pillow. The room partner did allow me to use his bed sheet, fortunately. Else I had no option but to literally sleep on the chilled floor. Finally in the end of September, my family decided to drop a visit. I did tell them to please get one pillow and one folding mattress which we were having back home. So now I can have my own bed at last.

Birthday
Never in my life I had celebrated my birthday at 12 midnight. What Mumbai didn't do, Pune did it for me. The thoughts which were there in back of my mind before I reached Pune were finally receding. I was almost in a different world in this new city. The change in location was surely working. It was mid October by now and I had almost settled in the city. Normally this period is the most exciting time of the year, as its my birthday. But this year I didn't sense any such excitement. I wasn't looking forward to that day or had made any grand plans. Only thing I had decided upon was that I will surely treat these new friends with a sumptous dinner in our regular restaurant. I don't know what is there in me that even before someone asks I am ready with plans to celebrate achievements may they be big or small. As one thing I have realized in life, happiness isn't any material thing, its just a state of mind. So never ignore a moment to cherish.

Dabang & Night Walk
The day I came to Pune, I was having a feeling of homesickness. To a very large extent. N most of my talks, I was speaking about going back home. Mane realised this. So he planned for a movie in a multiplex near to our library. I am not at all a fan of any actors in that movie. But somehow that movie break did help me cure my homesickness. After a couple of weeks, roommates too decided for the same movie. We also had a sponsor so no reason to deny the offer. It was a late night show. Fortunately it wasn't pouring that day, so we took our bikes and rode to the theatres. We all had our dinner. So once the movie was done we reached back to our houses by 12. No one couldn't resist the temptation to have a night walk. If my history is correct this was my first night walk. Those quiet streets, the starry sky is something one should surely experience. You realise the true meaning of peace. Just our sound echoing around. Ofcourse a sense of fear also grips you sometimes. But that togetherness gave us a great memory, for every first thing is special.

Ganpati Dance
No Mumbai kar is stranger to this term. All we need is few beats either coming from the drums or the DJs woofer else out very own local banjo party. Every one becomes Shiamak Davar or Ganesh Hegde. But if one needs to enjoy Ganpati festival, it's rich history, culture then you have to visit Pune. Whoever comes to this city, from whichever corner of the country a visit to Shreemant Dagdu Sheth Halwai Ganpati is on everyone's list. This time I visited during the festival. Normally during visarjan, idols are immersed in the lakes or seas. But in this  special case, they don't. It's just taken near the river and brought back in its original temple. On visarjan day, we left our rooms at 9pm and parked our bikes in a safe distance. The most popular place to be on the Visarjan day in Pune is Laxmi Road. As that's the main route to the river. You get to see so many idols. The best part is to watch the Dhol Pathaks. The scenes are truly worth watching. Wherever you hear music you can just loosen up. Dance. Shout. After I left college in 2008, this was the first time I was dancing and enjoying the moment to the core. Already I had come to this city with lot of baggage. This was the perfect occasion to get rid of it. I still remember I had danced my heart out like a maniac. Might have cried loudly inside to get rid of that baggage. Feeling reborn. I couldn't feel more thankful to all my roommates for that evening.

Diwali
The biggest festival in our calendar. And first time I wasn't home for the same. Every roommate went home, but I preferred to stay. So nothing special happened as such and it was the most dull festival for me. But our library did a small gesture for us which was worth remembering. They brought sweets and snacks for all of us to share the he festival excitement.

It's been six years now after that epic 3 months trip. I thank my luck that I got great people. And that is what always matters to me. Be it outside  or inside, in professional life or personal life all I need is good people. Rest whatever may be the problems, together we can overcome. I started writing this blog almost 3-4 years after that trip. So already a lot of memory has been diluted in the sands of time. I am still in touch with a couple of my those room mates. One of them is still in Pune while one is currently in USA. After that 3months stint, I could only visit them once. But the memories and the friendship is forever.


-SR

Sunday, 3 July 2016

Stupidity

What happened then happened again,
Water under the bridge I thought,
Back it came and has haunted me now

What is it that I fear, can't decipher
The fear is surely hurting others
That's crystal clear

Intentions are not wrong
They understood
History though repeated for me
Tragedy or farce still unclear

What is it that brings out the animal in me
Mostly I never speak
And when I do,
Either I spill venom or breathe fire unto you

They were there yesterday,
They are there today
But the over possessiveness 
May not assure a tomorrow

Committing a new mistake is human,
Repeating the same one, Stupidity
Need to keep a tap on my emotions
Else shall remain forever alone in this sphere


-SR.

Sunday, 19 June 2016

दोस्ती

ये वक़्त हमारा था
कोई हमसे इसे छीन नाही सकता

कल मुलाकात हो ना हो
ये कारवान हमसे कोई छीन नाही सकता

कुछ रिश्ते अंजाने में बन जाते है
पेहले दिल से और फिर ज़िन्दगी से जुड़ जाते है

ज़िन्दगी भले उल्जी रहे किसी अंजुमन में कल
पर यादों पे मेरी हुकूमत सदा रहेगी

बिक जाते है हर रिश्ते इस दुनिया में
पर जब तक दोस्ती ज़िंदा है
मेरे सर से मेरा आसमाँ कोई छीन नहीं सकता


-SR.